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What happened to me? (Big Dreams)

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Published: May 26, 2013

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Literature Text

What happened to me?!
I used to have so many big dreams
did it all disappear when I turned eighteen
When people stopped sugar coating everything
and told me no matter what I do
I will always be destined to lose
I wanted to escape from this family
Leave this city for a far away country
now I'm stuck in a life
I dont't want to live
Every night I wonder what it's like
to be killed
When I used to ddream about having a wife
and maybe a few kids
living in a happy home up on the hill
Where did all these feelings go?
I want to scream
because I don't really know
I hope I can find my way
back to the dreamer I once was
SO I can fill these nightmares
with hope so they'll go away
So I can finally be on my way
to fulfilling the dreams I once had
Back when my mind was clear
and my ambition was something to be feared
As I write this down
I think to myself "Will I ever
find my way again...Will
I find hope in these big dreams..Once again.."

I felt like pouring this out today, I feel a little better after walking this.
Basically it's about me losing what I used to have, those dreams that inspired me to be everything that I can be and more some.
At one time in my life there was this beast inside of me, actually it felt more like a fire burning inside of me. BUt one day I no longer felt it and my whole world came crashing down...I felt like Mike Tyson when he was given his 1st loss and kept losing until he finally retired after his 7th fight because the beast was no longer inside of him.

I don't mean to share too much of what goes on my mind , so I'll end it here..Enjoy this