Heartless

There's nothing in my chest
but empty dreams.
People say I have no talent
and I should give up.
No matter what I try to do,
they tell me I don't have the heart for it.
I should just quit!

They treat like a monster,
never letting me dream.
When I try,
they bring me back down.
They say I'm heartless
that I will be nothing.
I'm so down, I'm starting
to believe them.
I admit it recently I thought
about killing myself.
The knife's still in my room
they don't what I planned to do.
It's so hard trying to keep my cool
it doesn't really matter though.
They wouldn't believe me, they treat me like a fool.

Trying so hard to be happy
I smile in the mirror
but happiness won't appear.
I feel like my death is near
I'm so scared of myself.
Scared of how they make me feel,
why did they give me life?
when they just make me feel like giving it back!

I've been looked down on all my life.
they call me stupid, I can never do anything right.
There's never been someone nice in my life
my grandfather calls me a puss
for writing out all my pain out
my grandmother calls me a psychopath
she says I lack empathy
and I don't feel like at all
Its a lie!I do feel...
I really feel
I feel like taking my life
I'm trying so hard to prove them wrong
but my heart isn't moving

I want to cry
I feel so heartless
I don't want to try
there's no spark
in my life
No fire I have
no drive
but I;m trying to
find a lighter
So I can spark
up my life
before its so late
and I really become heartless